what I learned from a decade of fear

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Guilt isn’t what it used to be.  But is trust?

Beatriz Pizano tests her friendship with Lyon Smith by culling incriminating details from his average life.  What begins as a Ritual of Interrogation to atone for a decade of repression, war and paranoia becomes a eulogy for the human costs of our collective safety through the medium of security technology.

What if we believe it, when we are told, “this was done for us?”

From the Dora Award-winning team behind Nohayquiensepa (No one knows), this performance has been developed in Toronto (RUTAS panamericanas), New York City (La MaMa ETC), Bogotá, Colombia (Festival Alternativo), and Montreal (The Hemispheric Institute’s Encuentro at Concordia University).

Toronto Premiere at the Aluna Studio – 1 Wiltshire Ave, Unit 124

Thursday – Friday – Saturday at 8pm, Oct. 27 – Nov. 30


Created and performed by:  Beatriz Pizano, Trevor Schwellnus, Lyon Smith
Director / Scenographer:  Trevor Schwellnus
Sound Design:  Lyon Smith
Choreography consultant:  Ame Henderson
Costume consultant: Erin Gerofsky
Assistant Director: Sebastian Marziali
Production assistant: Jessica Zepeda
Surtitle translation: Carlos Gonzalez-Vio

Read more about our process on our blog.

This production is tour-ready with a team of four.

The Refuge of Freidel (El Refugio de Freidel)

friedel red pants 680 photo by Beatriz Pizano

Liliana looks at her own experience as a Colombian refugee through texts from her director, the controversial Colombian theatre-maker, Freidel, who was brutally assassinated in Medellin in the early 90’s.

A collective creation by Liliana Suarez Henao and Beatriz Pizano.

Toronto Premiere at the Aluna Studio in May 2014.

Nohayquiensepa (Nooneknows)

How do we deal with the death of strangers? Nohayquiensepa is a multidisciplinary presentation inspired by events in a Colombian river town on the fringe of great violence. A fresh integration of video, story, and movement through collaborative creation.


A powerful dance/theatre piece about the struggles of the indigenous women and the genocide of the Mayan nation in Guatemala between 1978 and 1984.